That's not right

Louis CK on cellphones and kids

A funny clip by Louis CK on empathy, media and kids. He talks about empathy and how kids might be being harmed by 'toxic' phones. At 38 seconds in he scrunches up the right side of his face to convey the hurt that is felt when a child is called fat. My thoughts tend to run toward agreeing with Louis but when I freeze the clip at 38 seconds there is a clear disparity in the halves of his face.

My sense is that when I communicate normally I connect right side to right side and the left side remains somehow unseen. Trying to make the connection with the left side with my attention in my left eye I often see less emotional content on the other persons left. In fact my normal is to see the 'persona' existing in the right half of others. I think there is a postural adjustment of my body to relate right side to right side.

Hat tip No Agenda Show 652

Questioning authority of the right

The deep throat sublingual tongue musculature is far stronger than I would have suspected. Almost seemingly controlling my postural response to my environment. I am still literally stuck in feeling only partial elements of the left side dominance but unable to bring it to full fruition. It does not feel like I have fully fleshed out what it takes to use the left tongue/face/lips/throat/eye in a way that is comparable to the right side structures. It feels like the difficulty is getting both the right giving up it's slight but significant positions of advantage and the left gaining operational range.

It is still amazingly difficult to connect left eye to left eye. Not that it is hard to do in a physical sense but in matter of a habitual response, my right eye 'naturally' travels to and makes a connection to the person I am communicating with or observing right eye. That dominance of the right eye feels to be reflected and amplified in my tongue and throat structures to my right sided muscle-skeletal posture. The unexamined belief that I had that I used my left sided structures in a similar way to the right increasingly does not hold water.

The thrill has left

Watching BB King sing he has the microphone set up on his left side. BB King is left handed but plays right handed on the guitar. Watching his lips he opens the mouth much wider on the left and seems to sing from his left side. It may be he is just responding to the placement of the microphone. I think he is demonstrating more vocal muscular control on the left. It reminded me of this video of the autistic boy who seemed to switch way to the right to open his mouth when he imitated Iago from Aladdin.

If I want to talk using my left tongue/side of head. I have to engage a great deal of musculature on the left that seems to have a much more passive role when I normally speak

Split Judgement

I have been focusing on left eye to left eye contact and trying to imagine the persona that is reflected on the left side of other's faces. It feels to be an active process to see the persona residing in the left half of others. On the right it is something I seem to do automatically. I have to look for the left eye and scan what I see around the eye/face. While on the right side I can take it in a glance. During our walks as a person comes down the path at us my right side can very easily make a judgement about the right sided person I see from a good distance. Focusing on the left side of their head takes quite a bit of time. I think most people have more facial expression on their right side which is easier to take in. The left side for most seems to be less (searching for the correct word here) communicative.

As you judge you shall be judged


Psychologists have discovered that our brains automatically process a person's facial features with the first glance we have of them, helping us to form snap judgements about them before consciously perceiving their appearance.

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Positive and negative

I have been getting more sense of differentiation of the left and right sublingual musculature. When playing with left under tongue musculature I get a nice feeling of elongation that extends all the way form my clavicle on the left through the hyoid to the left anterior mandible. It also provides a relief to left posterior skull spinal muscles in a way I never experienced.  I had no sense of the independence of this under tongue musculature a few years ago as I had one undifferentiated mass that I used without much thought. There are strong connections to how I use my head and spine that still feels quite foreign to my usual organization of my muscular-skeleton. Again the process seems more predicated on communication and perception of the right side dominant in myself and others

On a negative note I am getting what feels to be hip pain on the right while taking my walks. At first I thought it might be related to some skeletal reorganization related to the left tongue/eye/head. I am now leaning more to joint arthritis of the femoral head as the pain wraps around pelvis to front and back in a deep ache. If I stop ambulating the pain goes away after a bit but reoccurs when I ambulate any significant distance.

starbuck kid

Sitting in starbucks just noticed an infant in line with a stroller. My right eye went naturally to his right eye and looked for the connection. Thought about seeing his left eye with mine and there was a delay in my ability to switch from my right eye to my left eye and see what I was seeing. Briefly thought I made a connection with the right eye but did not see anything personal with my left eye to his left eye. I don't know what the baby was seeing but I  find it interesting how my habit of looking continues to be so one sided.

Comfortable

I cannot say I am comfortable with using the left side organization of myself as the dominant side but it is very interesting as the fragments seem to be coalescing. When I am able to see the persona on the left which again is an active process there is a subtle postural change that happens throughout my muscular-skeleton.  The change is easily overridden by my usual posture but it does not feel to be a conscious control. My right and left dominant posture seems to be set by my perception. When I see the persona on the left side of others my body responds to engage that person from my left.