Thinking about an old post. Nature can sometimes be very cruel but when I think of the parent child interaction it is often about the developing bond between them. There has been the debate forever about nature or nurture having the greater impact on our development. An old movie The Wild Child that relates the story of a french doctor who takes a child supposedly raised in the wild and tries to civilize him. It makes more sense to me that it was an abandoned autistic child who was raised through infancy and was either lost or abandoned at a certain age. However, going down my line of thought if the child for some reason could not see the persona expressed and was unable to learn to mimic those behaviors presented what kind of child would he be?
The movements that I am developing left half of my head/ throat/ sublingual tongue have a semiglobal relationship that are too complicated for me to have consciously directed them. I may be discovering them but I don't think I could have imagined the relationships. I am often trying to hear TV talking heads speak and attempting to make sure I mimic the words in my left tongue/sublingual musculature and throat. I think I am successful some of the time. The control that takes over my head is then different. For a long time these movements were painful but now contain a mixture of pain and a sense of tautness and fullness that was before unimaginable. They are still largely spastic and poorly controlled. If I attempt to try for too large a movement it is easy to switch back into my usual way of doing things than do what I intended. There is a true 'left' feel about them. I think what I am doing is outside normal development and in a sense will never rise to the proficiency that I achieved based on the interactions of my early nurturing.