Sunday, April 7, 2013
Sunday morning viewing
I am using my left eye to watch one of the Sunday morning news program. It is fairly difficult for me to keep the right eye closed and use my left eye to see the left side of the commentators face. The more natural side for my eye to be drawn to is the right eye of the speaker. I do not know what each commenter is feeling or their internal process but usually there seems to be a significant difference in their eyes. I think most are relating through their right eye to each other and to the TV viewer.
Saturday, April 6, 2013
Friday, April 5, 2013
Left tongue Left eye
Been watching the tube with right eye closed using my left eye to scan the commentator's face, I scan the left side then the right side. My feeling is I am sort of lost when looking at the left side. Almost like the words have less meaning. Switching my view over to the right side of the commentator's face and the words make more sense.
Inside myself the 'left' tongue is gaining more form. The movements are still spastic like they are pushing against something. Control is poor, the movements small, and the best results seem to ask for tiny gentle movements as I try to feel/imagine as much of the left tongue as I can The left front tip of the tongue seems to becoming slowly defined. Normally it feels like I sense my tongues position based on the right front tip. While in the 'left' tongue mode any time I come into contact with something it feels like I automatically switch back to the 'right' tongue mode. There seems to be strong connection with the left front tip and the left eye. I have been working with moving the left tongue with the left eye in the same and then in the opposite direction. It is interesting the feeling of activation I get along the musculature very close to my spine on the left side.
Inside myself the 'left' tongue is gaining more form. The movements are still spastic like they are pushing against something. Control is poor, the movements small, and the best results seem to ask for tiny gentle movements as I try to feel/imagine as much of the left tongue as I can The left front tip of the tongue seems to becoming slowly defined. Normally it feels like I sense my tongues position based on the right front tip. While in the 'left' tongue mode any time I come into contact with something it feels like I automatically switch back to the 'right' tongue mode. There seems to be strong connection with the left front tip and the left eye. I have been working with moving the left tongue with the left eye in the same and then in the opposite direction. It is interesting the feeling of activation I get along the musculature very close to my spine on the left side.
Wednesday, April 3, 2013
Hyoid location
Hyoid location
Fun animated gif of the hyoid location in the skeleton. The hyoid wraps around the missing airway. When I try to imagine the tongue musculature and the corresponding connecting muscles that link to the skull, sternum and scapulae it's positioning seems to increase in importance. I feel there is a significant difference in how I use the right and left musculature that connect to this small bone.
hyoid movement swallowing
Swallowing scan showing elevation of hyoid along with swallowing. Watching this it gives a different impression of what I feel. It looks like the position of the hyoid is almost unimportant and that there would be a range of places that it could be without any pull on other structures. When I try to internalize the feel and ask for a slight change in my hyoids position in a rotational movement it feels like it generates significant torque internally. I am probably recruiting more than I mean to.
Fun animated gif of the hyoid location in the skeleton. The hyoid wraps around the missing airway. When I try to imagine the tongue musculature and the corresponding connecting muscles that link to the skull, sternum and scapulae it's positioning seems to increase in importance. I feel there is a significant difference in how I use the right and left musculature that connect to this small bone.
hyoid movement swallowing
Swallowing scan showing elevation of hyoid along with swallowing. Watching this it gives a different impression of what I feel. It looks like the position of the hyoid is almost unimportant and that there would be a range of places that it could be without any pull on other structures. When I try to internalize the feel and ask for a slight change in my hyoids position in a rotational movement it feels like it generates significant torque internally. I am probably recruiting more than I mean to.
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
A fly in the ointment
I have no idea what my vocal folds are doing. However the fact they vibrate in response to neuromuscular signals would suggest a different model than I am suggesting with my tongues. I cannot rectify two different processes at this point. It would seem to make more sense that the asymmetry that I feel in the left and right tongues should be present there also. My voice may not be that melodious but I think there is probably not a great difference in my vocal folds symmetry.
Took a walk and wandered aimlessly making crazy noises. My sense of of pitch seems to precede and is separate of vocalization of my words. I can say a word in a high or low pitch, soundlessly or loud. I am way out of my league as there are probably millions who know more the mechanics of speech than I do. But my new perception of my left tongue still seems to be a different entity than my right 'normal' tongue feel. I do not think I will be able to resolve this disparity of my tongues and the pitch of my vocal folds to any great degree.
Took a walk and wandered aimlessly making crazy noises. My sense of of pitch seems to precede and is separate of vocalization of my words. I can say a word in a high or low pitch, soundlessly or loud. I am way out of my league as there are probably millions who know more the mechanics of speech than I do. But my new perception of my left tongue still seems to be a different entity than my right 'normal' tongue feel. I do not think I will be able to resolve this disparity of my tongues and the pitch of my vocal folds to any great degree.
Bad communication skills
I apologize for the quality of my writing if anyone is reading this. I often edit the posts after the initial posting. I feel like if I did not post because of the lack of editing I would never get anything posted. Not that it is much of an improvement after editing but at least I threw some spaghetti on the wall.
Communication training
just for thought
Communication training
just for thought
Monday, April 1, 2013
Postulate 5 revisited
5) The way I use my tongue, eyes and face is the foundation for my right handedness.
I stayed away the hyoid bone and it's muscular links in my first attempt with postulate 5.
lateral view with muscles attached
sagitttal view
Hyoid shape
Skeletal location
Muscular connections.
Hyoid description wiki
It is easy to discount the hyoid because most of my life I had no idea it existed. Therefore the muscular control must not be important. But most of the actions that I do I have no idea of what I actually do. I learned to move in response to the demands of society and my environment. If I perceived I had a very threatening environment it would make sense to me that I would adapt defensive positions in my musculature in response.
My general feeling is that I am very uptight. I believe my highly innervated small musculature in my throat would be the first link in the chain if I was under threat. The hyoid elevates and moves posteriorly to choke off the wind pipe. Nothing gets in or out. If I learned at a very young age to be quiet, stop crying while being threatened and it became habit, how could I ever learn to relax those muscles?
I remember taking tests when I went back to school in my mid thirties. I was often the first to finish but there are sometimes I wondered if I ever took a breath in the whole test. There was an anxiety that propelled me to finish that mounted as the test went on. It is very easy for one person tell another "Relax, and Breathe.". It is usually helpful for a second. I have played with abdominal breathing for years and it helps briefly when I am doing it. No one has ever said "Relax your stylohyoid muscles." Nor would it make sense. The muscles of my upper throat are almost inaccessible due to their familiarity. In a way it is who I am.
The hyoid has a shape that reminds me of the sissy bar of a banana seat bike that I had as a kid. What if I had better inhibitory control on one side as compared to the other due to the conscious control of speech? Most refined movement is carefully controlled between inhibition(relaxation) and contraction. Muscular activation always pull in both direction as essentially the muscle just contracts. One side may be fixed by other larger muscles or structures but the pull is in two directions. In walking muscles often play two different roles depending if my lower extremity is in swing or stance. Do I do the same in the mechanics of speech?
My feeling is that I use the left tongue in a more contracted sense to give the right side more freedom of movement. I have the same feeling in the rest of my use of my muscular-skeletal system. It is not that my left is unable but that it learned in sense to be subservient to my right. Others quite possibly can incorporate both to a much higher level than me.
I stayed away the hyoid bone and it's muscular links in my first attempt with postulate 5.
lateral view with muscles attached
sagitttal view
Hyoid shape
Skeletal location
Muscular connections.
- Superior
- Middle pharyngeal constrictor muscle
- Hyoglossus muscle
- Digastric muscle
- Stylohyoid muscle
- Geniohyoid muscle
- Mylohyoid muscle
- Inferior
Hyoid description wiki
It is easy to discount the hyoid because most of my life I had no idea it existed. Therefore the muscular control must not be important. But most of the actions that I do I have no idea of what I actually do. I learned to move in response to the demands of society and my environment. If I perceived I had a very threatening environment it would make sense to me that I would adapt defensive positions in my musculature in response.
My general feeling is that I am very uptight. I believe my highly innervated small musculature in my throat would be the first link in the chain if I was under threat. The hyoid elevates and moves posteriorly to choke off the wind pipe. Nothing gets in or out. If I learned at a very young age to be quiet, stop crying while being threatened and it became habit, how could I ever learn to relax those muscles?
I remember taking tests when I went back to school in my mid thirties. I was often the first to finish but there are sometimes I wondered if I ever took a breath in the whole test. There was an anxiety that propelled me to finish that mounted as the test went on. It is very easy for one person tell another "Relax, and Breathe.". It is usually helpful for a second. I have played with abdominal breathing for years and it helps briefly when I am doing it. No one has ever said "Relax your stylohyoid muscles." Nor would it make sense. The muscles of my upper throat are almost inaccessible due to their familiarity. In a way it is who I am.
The hyoid has a shape that reminds me of the sissy bar of a banana seat bike that I had as a kid. What if I had better inhibitory control on one side as compared to the other due to the conscious control of speech? Most refined movement is carefully controlled between inhibition(relaxation) and contraction. Muscular activation always pull in both direction as essentially the muscle just contracts. One side may be fixed by other larger muscles or structures but the pull is in two directions. In walking muscles often play two different roles depending if my lower extremity is in swing or stance. Do I do the same in the mechanics of speech?
My feeling is that I use the left tongue in a more contracted sense to give the right side more freedom of movement. I have the same feeling in the rest of my use of my muscular-skeletal system. It is not that my left is unable but that it learned in sense to be subservient to my right. Others quite possibly can incorporate both to a much higher level than me.
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