My voice is more than tongue and vocal cords

It feels like it is the jaw, throat , eyes, face, spine, ribs,etc

To talk with the left tongue seems to mean I have to use the whole left side in a different way to communicate effectively. Using the left side different feels to mean the right side has to give up it's position of advantage.

Just tried to smile on the left side of my face only with the right eye shut. I did not realize but I was smiling on the right side only for three times before I became aware of what I was doing.

The exact opposite of what I intended.

Left tongue tied behind my back

I have been closing the right eye, listening only with left ear, trying to imagine the words right to left, while watching Nat sing, studying the left side of his face, and trying to mouth the words with the left tongue.  The back of the left tongue feels on the cusp of joining the party. I think it is where the styloglossus attaches to the tongue and for many sounds I imagine it has to relax and lengthen to sound left (right). I don't feel there is a good differentiation between my jaw and tongue on the left rear side at present.

styloglossus


unforgettable

Doing the above creates a tension on both side of the lower jaw. It is like I am fighting an existing tension to allow for a different use of tongue and jaw musculature. Almost like I go through life with the left tongue tied behind my back.

Walking and left trunk

I have spent many years in the movement awareness thingy. I have gone down more than a few dead ends. Today, I went for a walk with my wife and my left trunk had a different engaged more erect positive kind of feel. It was not something I was attempting to do.

Tenderly

Tenderly with Nat and Oscar Peterson

Beautiful song and piano. Trying to mouth the song using my left tongue in a gentle (tenderly) manner with the words running right to left in my head

Left eye left tongue

Even though I am reading right to left I don't think that I am using the left eye in a dominant way.  It feels almost like it does not know how to see the letters and understand it. In a way it defers to the right. I am aware that each half of the eye sends messages to it's corresponding cerebral hemisphere and half to it's opposite. I do not think I coordinate the eyes equally however.  I don't think I am one of the people with true depth perception but instead use clues from the environment to establish distance. When I look at the moon at night I often see two outlines slightly apart from each other.

The musculature under the left tongue seems to get a great deal of cues from the left eye. I am working with trying to feel the left eye and tongue moving in the same directions and then opposite directions

Talking to myself

Thinking about Dr Wigans book.

The Duality of the Mind

He argues that is good for one hemisphere to be dominant in order to progress through life in a structured way. My feeling is that I need more symmetry. I wonder when I do my negative talk to myself is it my left cerebral hemisphere (right body) talking to my right cerebral hemisphere (left body) and telling it how fucked up it is. My right hemisphere not being able to respond in words is not able to say relax, take it easy, live , enjoy life and others. It takes the negativity and believes it.

His theory resonates more with me than my limited understanding of the current view of the mind and psyche, but I am beginning to think my right hemisphere (left tongue) is beginning to be able talk back.

Crossing over

 I have trouble getting the left tongue to cross the midline. In reading right to left the eyes are pulled to the right at the beginning of each sentence presumably with the musculature on the left side of each eye relaxing and the right side of each eye contracting. It feels like my right eye does not want to go all the way to the right but stay in the optimal position to see most of the sentence at once. More in the center. It feels like to get it to see the beginning of a right to left sentence I have to make sure I get all the way to the right.

My left tongue does not feel like it has the ability to tell the right tongue to contract without switching to right tongue mode.  I have no awareness of the left tongue in the right mode so I am presuming that the right tongue dictates to the left to put the right tongue in the most advantageous position to create the sounds it needs.