Mood enhancement

Did the morning trail after a week off this morning. I did not feel like pushing it hard but I am walking a little faster.  The weekends are when the crowds are there training for marathons.  I am trying to connect on the left side with my left side of face and eye as we walk by the runners and walkers coming in the opposite direction.. I am trying to be empathetic, accepting and good willed with the musculature on the left side of my face. In so doing my mood improves.

There is a difference with initiating the musculature on my left side of face than my right. It has a connection to the way I use my whole left side.

Nothing new

Still playing with what I feel to be the 'left tongue' even though it may not be the 'left tongue'.

Nothing new

Leftistic

Just watched a interview on TV with a Mom of a autistic child.  I was watching both sides of her face and in comparison to many people in my view she was remarkably expressive on both sides.. She made a point that autism is mostly about communication deficits. That the child does not make the connection to the parents or others.

Creating autistic monkeys

I am wondering if my left side is somewhat similar to autism. I cannot easily imagine/connect to the persona of a person on the left side. I think I fall in the normal range and the issue is undoubtedly far more complex than I am suggesting. If my sense of the Mom above is correct then that further weakens my ideas. However I believe my favoritism of my right side to the neglect of my left is that it is connected in the way I relate to others.

Danny boy

Danny boy

Nice version of Danny boy by Sinead O Connor.  As I tend not to relate to the left side of the face with right side of her face in the dark I think I tend to listen to the sound of her voice more than if the right side of her face was lit.

However it is a good video for me to watch if I am trying to see the left side as part of someone to relate to. There is a different feel on the left side of my face as I try to read her left side of face. It takes effort on my part to imagine a personality behind the beauty of her face and song while I watch.

PS

After watching some more with my right eye shut and looking for the persona on the left I am struck by the size of my deficit in being able to see her manifested in the left side of her face.

Sweet Molly Malone

Another song with a nice close up where on a few occasions I can actually imagine a persona on the left that I relate to. Almost like for my left side to develop I need the perception of another person on their left side for it to start.

Am I wrong about the 'left tongue'?

I feel the musculature under the tongue which I believe to be the extrinsic muscles in a way that I never did before.  There is a differentiation between the left and right musculature and I can ask one side to contract and the other to relax. It feels like I usually keep the left side more contracted than the right. Feeling these muscles move and relax independently may have given me the feeling of having a 'left tongue' but when I move to the intrinsic tongue musculature and surface of the tongue,  I am not as clear with the differentiation of the left and right. In other words I may be wrong about the idea of the 'left tongue'. I still cannot get what I feel to be the left tongue to move in a way that says I am doing what I think I am doing. I have delayed posting this as it is somewhat embarrassing even though there is a high possibility that the only person reading this is myself.  I keep playing with what feels to be the left tongue but when I check it by moving the tongue normally the locations do not line up. I am not totally convinced I am wrong. I am planning on to keep on playing with my possible non existent 'left tongue' and see where it leads.

Eye to eye

Walking on the trails again. I have been observing the left eye and face of others as we pass on the right. The feeling that I do not really see the left side of face spontaneously or even relate to that side as being a person seems more and more self evident. On the surface it would seem easy to differentiate what I am doing. The assumption I always have had was of course I relate to a person as a left and right side. The reality is I do not. I see the right side as the person I relate to.  I do not think this is true of everyone but again I think I fall in a normal range. I may look at the left side of ten people's face and only get the gestalt of one as a individual personality. Even though I am looking at the left my prejudice is that right side is the "person". It is much harder for me than it would seem to be.

It feels like this is the basis for my right handedness and the dominance of the right tongue. There is a strong connection of my left tongue and left eye but I am unclear to the origin or mechanics. Spontaneous movement of one feels to be reflected in the other. The movements feel foreign, somewhat spastic, limited in control but more powerful in the limited range than would seem possible because if I switch back to the normal 'right' side control they cease to exist.

I'm the bigggest clown

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